Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Words cannot describe

We did not get the birth certificate. Jeff is talking to our attorney as I type and she is assuring us that there is nothing that can stop our adoption. It is just a matter of time. She plans to "make some noise" with the director of the civil registry tomorrow morning. If anyone can do this for us, it is Susana (our attorney). She will fight to the end. Please continue to pray. Pray specifically for her to say the right words that need to be said to the director that will get our BC. I do not want to have to deal with court orders or criminal charges in order to get our birth certificate.

I want to thank all of you for your prayers, encouragement and kindness during this process. This has been THE hardest thing I have ever done and right now I can not begin to describe the hurt in my heart. I feel like I have been shattered into a million pieces. I love Bella and desire for her to be part of our family. God is in control and I will watch to see how His plan for our lives unfolds.

I admit I broke down, but I just went to my Bible and found these verses:

"For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow." James 1:3

"I am willing to endure anything if it will bring salvation and eternal glory in Christ Jesus to those God has chosen." 2 Timothy 2:10

"You can be sure that the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ." 2 Corinthians 1:5

This next one will be the hope I cling to in the days to come.
"Without wavering, let us hold tightly to the hope we have, for God can be trusted to keep his promise." Hebrews 10:23


Amanda

26 comments:

The gFamily said...

I am so sorry!! I still can't help but think that God is going to do something amazing through your case! I am going to continue to lift you and your family to the Lord for peace that passes all understanding and that precious Bella comes home to you! Please Lord hear our cries!

Anonymous said...

My heart hurts so bad for all of you! We will continue to lift you all up to the Lord. He's knows how this will turn out. We come against the evil forces that bind Bella to Guatamala! In Jesus Name!!

Love you guys!
Lilly

Kim said...

I'm SOOOO sorry!!! I've been checking all night and was really hoping to be celebrating with you tonight. No matter if you post or not - I will continue to pray for your family. There just are no words.....

Terry said...

I'm so sorry to hear this news and know you must be hurting more than ever. (((HUGS))) and many prayers. There are no other words to say. My heart is broken for you!

Terry

Jami said...

Amanda - I too hurt for you guys so badly. I am just shocked and so saddened. I am praying for a miracle.

Please Lord - SHOW YOUR POWER!! Bind Satan and strengthen Jeff and Amanda now!!!

Ginger--Maya's mommy said...

I am so sorry!!! My heart is so heavy for you tonight. I will be praying hard that your attorney says and does what needs to be done. Bella will be home.

Kim Capello said...

I fully expected to open this blog to the greatest of news! I am devastated. I can't begin to try and imagine how you guys are feeling right now. You are right though, God IS in control. I love you guys and will not cease in my prayers for Bella's triumphant trip home!

Jennifer said...

Amanda -
My heart is breaking for you - but I still have faith that GOd will see you through this - and in the end it will be an amazing blessing! I know that your faith is strong - and I pray that He is holding you tightly and bringing you peace.
Love,
Jennifer

FaceforGrace said...

Wow...not the news I was hoping for all day. Every 5 minutes I've been checking for an update. We are continuing to pray and agree with you.

Loves,
Holly

Melissa said...

Keep holding to that hope and that promise.

I will be praying for Susana to have the right words to say, for the civil registry people to have softened hearts, and for your family to endure.

Rosie's Mom said...

I have hope in my heart that your attorney WILL get that birth certificate. God can do anything -and if some person in the CR doesn't want to give that bc up, it doesn't matter. Remember the same thing happened with family court. God delivered that adoption decree. I pray that God will simply remove this road block.

The gFamily said...

I know I already posted, but I wanted to say that your strength in the Lord has brought me to tears! God is using you in amazing ways! I know that God is teaching me great things through you! You are an amazing woman of God and I admire you so much!! Still praying for Bella to come home and for everyone to see a miracle take place! Oh, what a story you will have to tell her about how hard you fought for her with the Lord as your strength!

Kim Capello said...

Those verses you shared spoke to my heart as well. God is awesome and He will bring Bella home.

Dawn said...

I'm so, so sorry.

I know we were all pulling for you. Praying for better news soon!
d

Mama Bunny said...

Amanda, I got my news today, so that naturally means yours is coming. I will call you tomorrow night and check in. She's coming sweety, she's coming.

JuJu - said...

I am sure as capable and talented as your attoney is that this will get this resolved. I know that she has such a HUGE heart for these children and I now she will fight for Bella and she will fight to see that she does come home:) Praying for you Amanda:)

JUlia:)

Katie said...

I am so sorry for you pain --- I will keep praying until Bella comes HOME !!!!

Bekah said...

oh amanda. this is not what i expected to read this morning. i was fully expecting to read about your miracle. i am praying and won't stop until the Lord finishes this good work and brings sweet bella home. i'm so so so sorry friend. i know words don't help but my heart hurts so much for you. love you.

Cindy said...

Oh Amanda, I'm so sorry.

Anonymous said...

Amanda, I am so very sorry. Still believing and praying for you all.

Stephanie

Andrea said...

Oh Amanda, I am SO SO sorry. but you're right, if anyone can get it done, it's Susana. She will fight to the VERY end for you. I am so glad you found those verses-you are so strong, and you will make it thorugh this. Bella will come home-there are too many prayers for her not to!!

Hang in there, and we'll keep praying for you!!

Rose said...

So sorry! If anyone can do it Susana can. It s going to get done!

Jami said...

Amanda - those verses are amazing. I will continue to pray for peace and for good news. Love you!

Anonymous said...

Amanda -
I agree with Susana - nothing is going to stop this adoption from happening! By the time you and I get to Christmas-time, both of us will be attempting to keep ornaments out of our Isabellas' mouths, and telling their older brothers that they're not ready for sugar cookies, just yet! Hang in there - it is going to happen!

Kari

Justin said...

God will have His way; of this we can be confident! I am praying peace over your home in this day. Though my heart aches for you, I also have an eacger anticipation for the good that is to come!
Much love!
Angela

Jill said...

Stay strong. You have been through so much. I will continue to pray for your family and for your lawyer. We are here for you...