So thankful...

Last week I went to the dermatologist to have a mole checked out. It had turned black and my husband was a little concerned. The doctor did an in-office biopsy. The nurse called yesterday with the results. There are 3 ways that a mole biopsy can come out. 1. it is benign 2. it is in the gray area (with atypical cells) 3. it is malignant. Well, my report came back at #2-- in the gray area. That means that under the microscope there were some cells my doctor does not like and wants ALL gone. They are going to remove a 2-3 inch section that is the shape of a football in the area of the mole. I asked if this was pre-cancerous and she said "NO"-- he just wants it ALL gone. So, in 2 weeks I will go to his office and have this "simple" procedure done. The area will be numb and she assured me I would not feel any of it. I have my doubts about that!:) Of course, I googled when I got home and read that eventually these atypical cells could turn into cancer. I am SOOOO thankful that did not happen! Praise God!!


Now, let me tell you about the rest of my week. I am not at liberty to report all the details of where my case is right now. Once Bella is home, I will post the particulars and you will see the miracle of it all. I can tell you that I did receive information Wednesday night that had me in the dumps! Jake went to church with a friend of mine that night and when we went to pick him up, my friend came to the car to share something with me. Her pastor had preached a message on the blind man that was brought to Jesus. He was asked "who sinned-- him or his parents? Why has this happened to him?'' Well, let me digress to let you know that has been my NUMBER 1 question these days. The reply from Jesus spoke VOLUMES to me. He told them that the matter at hand was not whether he sinned or his parents, but that this had come about that the Father may be glorified. WOW! Suddenly, I GOT it. It is not about the why, but about what He is doing in me through the situation and the "how" He is going to get the glory. I decided right then and there that I wanted to bring Him glory no matter how bleak this process gets for us. My husband and daddy have said all along that this adoption was not just about getting our baby, but that He had a much bigger plan in it all. I have repented for my lack of trust and attitude these past months and decided that I am going to do my best to go forward and bring Him glory! After all, where we are now in the process, the only way she is coming home is because HE does it. To God be the glory!

I was also reminded this week that all throughout the Bible, God turned the hearts of kings and rulers and all in authority towards the people of God. I know that during this time, I allowed the enemy to come in and rob me of what I know to be true about my God. He is powerful and more than able to accomplish all I need done. I got so caught up in Sr. Barrios, my attorney, FC judges and what they would not do, that I forgot that I have an intimate relationship with the Creator of this universe- my Heavenly Father and my Savior-- and changing the hearts of evil men is what He did best in the Old Testament. The past couple of days, I have been reading my Bible more and praying for their hearts to be turned toward my adoption and thanking God for it-- instead of asking "Why?". I am not accepting that this is just the way things go in international adoption. I found a verse on my last visit trip and cannot find it again. I do remember that it said something about "I will bring your daughters out of captivity." Well, right now, our children are in captivity because evil men like Mr. PGN and some reviewers are holding them there with legalities. I declare today that "in the name of Jesus, they are coming out sooner, rather that later!"

I am praying for each of you daily and look forward to good things beginning to happen in the coming days. Hang in there-- they ARE coming home. Anne Pearce is just the beginning! (Congrats Lou and family-- you give us all hope and remind us that God is faithful- He does finish what He starts!)

I love you all and am appreciative for the encouragement and prayers. Keep them coming!